A) I wish I could write sober as well as you write drunk (sometimes I feel inebriation actually helps) B) I am very sorry for your loss - which leads to C) My father passed on the 16th, and even though we had the casket, the funeral, the whole nine yards, I still don't know how to feel myself. He had MS, so he had suffered a long time. In a way, I still feel more relief and gratitude than grief. I thought that would change by now, but I'm still very numb to it. And the guilt that it brings. When people ask how I'm feeling, that's what I really want to say, "guilty'. I hear "it takes time", but what does that really even mean??